Day 5 – Weight Watchers ‘Simple Start’

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Well, as I mentioned the other day… I rejoined Weight Watchers last week.  So far the only change to the plan I’ve noticed is the new “Simple Start,” which is basically just 2 weeks of following the Simply Filling plan before diving into the regular WW Points Plus plan (or choosing to stay with Simply Filling if you wish). 

It’s probably a good idea, as it helps you focus on eating whole foods instead of the processed weight-loss junk WW has a bad reputation of pushing.  But I have to say — I’m a bit skeptical about it.  Only because with Simply Filling you don’t have to track or measure anything except for foods that are not on the list of “Power Foods.”  That worries me a bit because a big part of the reason I’m here is that I’m not good with portion control (obviously).

But so far, so good, I think.  I already eat a very whole-foods-based diet, so it hasn’t been much of a challenge for me… and I’m kinda loving that I get 7 points a day to eat chocolate or peanut butter or whatever other “cheats” I want.  That’s kind of nice.

Oh and I peeked at the scale this morning and it was looking pretty good.  So I’m  just going to keep plugging along and hope Friday morning’s weigh-in makes me a believer!  I’ll keep you posted!

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Back to being a full-fledged member

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I really hoped this day would never come, but Friday I took the walk of shame back through the doors of my local Weight Watchers center.  I couldn’t believe when I signed back in to my eTools account, it had been a year, almost exactly, since I quit doing the program as an official member. Wow.  And here I am again!

So let’s recap what’s been going on the past few years:

  • I joined Weight Watchers in October of 2011 with an official starting weight of 237 and an official goal weight of 160.
  • Over the following year, I lost almost 50 pounds and got down to the lowest weight I have ever been as an adult: 188.
  • Over the holidays of 2012 I managed to gain back 10 pounds, bringing me back up to 198. That was the start of a really hard year for me.
  • At the beginning of 2013, due to work and income changes, I ended up quitting Weight Watchers and trying to do it on my own — still following WW guidelines, and keeping to a very dedicated fitness plan throughout the year (You can check out my fitness log here.)
  • I struggled all through 2013 to lose weight – desperately wanting to get back to 188 (not even dreaming about getting to goal weight!)… but if you followed my blog at all, you know…. my weight would not budge.
  • Throughout the year I lost and gained the same 7 or 8 pounds but could never get back down to that elusive 188.  The closest I ever got was 191.
  • The holidays of 2013 struck, and my extreme frustration over my plateau… coupled with a really bad knee injury … sent me into a pretty bad funk diet-wise and although I didn’t completely go crazy, I didn’t do great either.
  • That brings me to January 31 of 2014.   I am ashamed and utterly humiliated to admit that my new starting weight as of Friday was 206.

I want to cry typing that horrible number out, but it is what it is.  I can wallow in shame and pity or I can get over it and move on.  I think I’ll choose the latter.  That’s why I’m here confessing it to everyone publicly, and that’s why I decided I needed to actually go to a meeting and join Weight Watchers again.

It felt like deja vu walking back through the doors on Friday.  I quickly remembered how much I dislike WW meetings.  Don’t get me wrong… I need the WW meetings (apparently), but I really hate them.  I hate the cheesy little stickers they hand out, I hate having to clap for everyone, I hate the scripted weekly messages the leaders give us.  But I need it.

I need the accountability.  I need to get in my car every week and drive somewhere and stand in front of someone and have them tell me if I lost or gained weight.  I need to listen to the messages (as cheesy as they are) and remind myself of the things I need to be doing.  Much like going to church each week, I need to be surrounded by people with my same vision and recommit every week to the things I know I need to do.

So there you go!  I’m back!  I have to say I’m a bit hesitant about the whole “Simple Start” thing they have us on for the first 2 weeks (more on that in future posts), but I’m doing it!  And as usual… I’ll be keeping everyone posted of the progress (or lack thereof) right here on my blog.  Wish me luck!  I really feel like I need it.

My ever-exciting Food Log – Tuesday

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Breakfast
Light English muffin with 1 tbs natural PB
Large apple

Lunch
2 C Spaghetti Squash Pie (spaghetti squash, ground turkey, low fat cottage cheese, part skim mozzarella)
1/4 C chocolate chips

Dinner
1 C Vegetable curry with 1/2 C white rice
2 big ol’ handfuls of Ruffles

Exercise
Treadmill speedwalking – 40 minutes (Tried to run and still can’t.  Sigh.)

Verdict
It’s sad how I’ve let junk food come into my life in such a big way.  Chocolate chips and Ruffles??  Really?  These are things I usually don’t even keep in my house, but I have them left over from Thanksgiving and they were calling my name all day.  They are going in the trash tomorrow.

What can I say? I’m weak.  And this is why the weight is not coming off.  Even when I’m staying within my calorie range, I know I am one of those super unlucky people who really has to eat the right foods, not just the right amount of calories… or it just doesn’t come off. So again… I’ll try harder tomorrow!  At least I’ve tracked two days in a row now, right?

Monday’s Food Log

In my attempt to get back in track with tracking this week, here is my food log for Monday (boring as it may be):

Breakfast
2 scrambled eggs
Large piece of sourdough toast
Lunch
Vegetable curry
3/4 cup cooked white rice
Snack
Big handful of Trader Joe’s dark chocolate covered pretzel thins
Dinner
2 French dip “cupcakes” from Emily Bites
1 serving Caesar salad (from a light Caesar Salad kit)

Exercise
20 minutes stationary bike + 15 minutes elliptical

Verdict
Did well on calories today, but not so great on nutrition. Need to work on that tomorrow!

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Back to Tracking

Wow this is embarrassing to admit, but I guess if this blog is supposed to help keep me on track, I have to be completely honest.  I just looked back into my “My Fitness Pal” food tracker app, and the last time I tracked a whole day’s worth of food was all the way back on….

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October 28th.

Ouch.

And we all know what starts happening when you don’t track.  Bad, bad, very bad things.  Like you eat chocolate chip cookies or DQ blizzards for dessert.  And donuts for breakfast.  Stuff I never do when I track — because I don’t want to see those completely empty calories staring me in the face!

So here’s my commitment for the week.  This week I will track every morsel of food I put in my mouth.  And I’ll post it here, too, for extra accountability.  Like I said a couple posts back…. I can’t let this holiday season ruin me.  I just can’t.

Three Words I Thought I’d Never Say

I miss running.

There… I said it.  And it’s something I never ever ever thought I would say in my life — EVER — but it’s true!

A few weeks back (October 7 to be exact), I went out for a nice little run.  It was less than 3 miles… in the park I usually run at on Mondays.  No big deal.  It felt like a really good run, actually.  I had a good pace and I didn’t feel sore or tired.  I only stopped when I did because I had to go pick up my daughter from her dance class.

The next night (after having a very normal, pain-free day), I went to sleep and at about 1AM I woke up to excruciating pain in my right knee…. so intense it actually woke me from my sleep! I tried stretching and rubbing and doing anything I could think of to make it go away, but nothing would help.  I ended up icing it down and was able to sleep for a couple hours, but when I woke up I was still in terrible pain.

Well, me being the doctor-hater I am (sorry to any doctor’s reading this ..ha!) and having the worst insurance on the face of the earth and being on limited funds….. I decided to just try to take care of it myself and wait a while to see if the pain would go away.  Fast forward one week and after taking it easy on my workouts, stretching it several times a day, using a foam roller religiously and taking some leftover prescription-strength Ibuprofen I had from some dental surgery a while back…. nothing.  I was still in so much pain, especially when I would lie down at night, I could barely sleep and it was painful to even walk or sit.  Not cool.

So I finally sucked it up and made an appointment with an orthopedist – a sports injury specialist.  And of course (reason #10993 I hate doctors), the earliest I could get in to see her was ONE WEEK LATER.  Sigh.

By the time I got in to see her, my pain had gotten a little better.  I could sleep, at least, but bending my knee or squatting or getting out of a chair or car, or doing anything that kept my knee bent for any length of time was still really killing me.  She ended up having me take a steroid pack and more Ibuprofen for a week and wanted me to come back 2 weeks later for a cortisone shot in the knee if things hadn’t improved.

Two weeks later, I’m back in her office… still in pain… but now the pain has gone from my knee all the way up through my quadriceps and hip, rear and lower back.  AGH!!  She decided a cortisone shot wouldn’t be appropriate, since the pain wasn’t localized any more, and referred me to a “physiotherapist” instead.  Yes…. this is after a full month in pain and not much relief yet!

So now I’ve been going to this physiotherapist/chiropractor’s office for the past week, and I am feeling a lot less pain, but I still can’t run.  And now the physiotherapist has found a whole slew of things wrong with me — from my neck to my upper and lower back, to my hips and leg.  What started out as a pain in my knee has now turned in to a diagnosis that basically my entire body is falling apart!    *sigh*

Check out these Xrays (just cuz I think Xrays are cool).

This first one is my lower back.  The green is where things should be, and the red is where things actually are.  Kind of explains why I’m always having lower back pain and sciatica.

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Then this one is my neck.  The person on the left has a “normal” neck.  The one on the right is mine.  I had no idea a neck was supposed to be curved, but my doctors say it is.  And mine is straight.  That is apparently not a good thing.

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Anyway!  So this long story is all to say….  I’m still in some serious pain and I haven’t been able to run in over a month now, and I really miss it.  As much as I hate it while I’m doing it, I miss the great feeling I get when it’s over.  I am actually jealous of the people I see running on the side of the road now.  And my sweet husband has been trying to become a runner.  I’m really happy he’s trying so hard, but it does bum me out when I see him tie up his shoes and head out in the mornings.  😦  And sadly, I actually signed up for my very first full-fledged 5k that’s next week and now I’m going to have to walk it.  THAT SUCKS.

Ah well… enough of the pity party!  A good friend of mine was hit by a car the other day while riding his bike and is in pretty critical condition at the hospital right now, so I feel like a huge, ungrateful baby even whining about such a small ailment as this.  I am truly blessed to have the health I have.  I just hope I can get back to 100% one of these days.  And I promise I won’t complain about running any more if/when I do!  You can hold me to that!

Where did the time go?

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Wow it’s been almost two months since my last blog post.  That stinks!!  I’m happy to say, though, that my lack of posts have not been because I’ve fallen off the wagon.  I’ve just been incredibly busy so I’ve let time slip by.  Going to grad school while working and being a wife/mother sure takes up a lot of one’s time!

I know this time of year is super rough (diet-wise) for me, though, and I’m going to need as many sources of accountability/motivation as I can possibly get…. so here I am!  Last year at this time was the beginning of my 10-pound GAIN and I just can’t do that again this year.  It kills me to realize I am still up 5 of those 10 pounds at this point!!!  That means I’ve lost a whopping 5 pounds in one year this year.  WOW.  I can’t believe that.  I really can’t.

SO!  For that reason, I’m here to keep my focus and at least maintain my weight through these next couple of months.  I’m absolutely going to do it…. I just know it’s going to take some discipline.  For instance, I know all of those treats my neighbors and friends are going to bring over for my birthday and Christmas are going to have to go straight in the garbage.  It’s painful to do that, but I must.  I know it.  If treats are sitting around the house I will eat them!  Heck, I sure did last year!

So yeah… I’m back.  I doubt you even knew I was gone… but I’m back! lol