Body Acceptance — you should read this


Self-Esteem

I squeezed into my workout clothes to go to Body Pump class this morning, cursing my giant thighs and the stomach roll that just won’t go away.  Then I sat down to go through my blog reader for a few minutes and this post came up from one of my favorite weight loss bloggers – So Much Fattitude.

You really should give it a read.

I, too, get so frustrated when I’m clicking around sites like Pinterest and people are posting all of these things about wanting to be thin so they can be “that girl” at the club, or so they can make their ex regret breaking up with them, or so they can wear a string bikini again (again?? really?).  And I REALLY despise all the pictures of half-dressed women with fake boobs in full makeup, big hoochie hair, bodies spritzed down with oil and glitter… supposedly working out in the gym.  You know the ones I’m talking about. Is that supposed to inspire me?  Give me a break.

But even knowing how ridiculous all this stuff is, and knowing that the true beauty of each of us is our spirits, and that any of us who have a healthy, functioning body are truly blessed … I can’t help but get bogged down with negative thoughts about my body.  Especially since hitting this year (+) long plateau and not being able to lose weight for my life.

I wish I could be like the second half of her blog post where she says she has stopped hating her body and started appreciating its beauty and strength.  I’m working on it.  Hey I even posted a picture of my arms the other day.  That was a huge step for me.  (Although I am still incredibly embarrassed by the photo because of the batwings that hang below the muscles, sigh.)  I’m just not sure how you undo all those years of negative thoughts.

If any of you have some words of wisdom for me, I’m all ears.  I really would like to change.

I’ll Take the Little Victories Where I Can Get Them

Well, the scale still refuses to budge any faster than a snail, but I did celebrate a little milestone today. I ran for 35 minutes straight without stopping. Yay me!

I know this is hardly a major feat by most people’s standards… and it was on a treadmill, which I admit is a lot easier than running on the road… but I think my previous record was 20 minutes (maybe 25?) so it was a pretty big deal to me! My quads were on fire for the last ten minutes so it was a tough mind game at the end, which made me feel even better that I didn’t give up sooner.

I even took a little post-run selfie in celebration of my accomplishment. Sweaty, un-made-up-face and all!  Hey, I gotta celebrate when I can!!

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No, I Haven’t Fallen Off the Wagon

Whenever a weight loss blogger stops posting for a while, I always just assume they’ve fallen off the wagon.  And I know it’s been a few weeks since I last posted, but I’m happy to report that no… I haven’t fallen off.  I just haven’t had much time to update, and really haven’t had much to say, to be honest.

The good news is, I’m still slooooowly crawling away from the 200’s and weighed in at 194 this week.  Still a terrible number, I know, but at this point I am happy for any kind of loss I can get.  I’m still working out about 5 times a week (I have been keeping up with my workout log even though I haven’t been blogging) and still staying under my calorie goal and trying to stay low-carb-ish.

So it’s been pretty same ol’ same ol’ as far as the weight loss journey goes.  Life has been pretty busy with the start of the new school year.  My daughter started middle school (still can’t believe I’m old enough to have a middle-schooler) and I started my first class towards my Masters.  I haven’t had to study and write anything intelligent in about 15 years, so that has been an interesting adjustment!

Last weekend my husband and I went on a little “getaway” up to Utah and had a great time.  There was lots of food temptation all over the place up there, but I did pretty well controlling myself.  This journey has been so incredibly long and slow-moving for me, that I often forget how much I’ve actually changed.  While we were in Utah I saw a friend I haven’t seen in about 3-4 years and she literally did not recognize me.  That was a nice little reminder.

Next week we travel to Arkansas to see my stepson get married.  Again, I know we’ll be surrounded by major food temptations, but again… I’ll do my best!  I really want to keep this downward trend going.

On that note, I’ll end with a couple pictures from our Utah trip.  This was in Snow Canyon State Park.  Aren’t the red rocks gorgeous?

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Then we hiked down into tubes formed by Lava when a volcano erupted thousands of years ago.  Very very cool.  

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I felt like such an adventurer with my headlamp on… ha!  I do have to say it felt great to be able to hoist myself in and out of the giant holes we climbed in to.  The old me probably would not have even tried for fear of getting stuck!

Oh and we went 4-wheeling on some ATV’s, too.  This was me trying to look hard-core.   Didn’t really work, I know.  

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Anyway… It was a very fun, active weekend and I can’t wait to go back again.  Utah is such a beautiful place!