I don’t know about you, but when I see someone post about “recommitting,” I always roll my eyes. So feel free to roll your eyes right now.
But with that said…. I am making a public announcement that as of tomorrow — Monday, May 6, 2013 — I am recommitted. And I truly mean it. I have come way too far to let myself slip back into my old ways (and especially to go back to my old size)!
“What’s been going on,” you ask? Well, that’s a tough one to answer. I have had a bunch of drama going on in my life — too much to list here. But that’s no excuse for falling off track. What it comes down to is I’ve been discouraged. My never-ending plateau has discouraged me more than I like to admit. It’s so hard to keep trying and trying and see no results.
So I’ve let that feeling of discouragement take over and make me lackadaisical about my diet. No I haven’t gone crazy and gained 25 pounds. To be honest I don’t know how much I’ve gained because I refuse to get on the scale! But I know I’m up a bit because my clothes, while still fitting, do not fit right. If I had to guess I’d say I’m probably up 8-10 pounds. I’ll find out for sure on Friday. I’m giving myself til then to weigh in.
But anyway… I have no excuses. What it comes down to is a choice. I can “give up,” go back to my old ways and end up back at 265 pounds. Or I can get over my discouragement and keep trying.
Here’s the good news. My last day at my old job was Friday, and starting tomorrow I’ll be working from home. That’s fabulous news for me because a lot of my diet struggles happened at the office. Between the events I had to plan and the business lunches and meetings I had to attend (all centered around food), it was really hard to stay in control of what I could eat. Now I won’t have that excuse. I’ll be in complete control of every meal and snack, and that is a wonderful thing!
It’s also good news that through this all I’ve never given up on my fitness routine. As you can see from my fitness log (linked above), I’ve been very diligent in that respect — despite the lack of results. I’m hoping now if I can get my diet back in order, the combo of good diet and diligent fitness will equal RESULTS!!!
So here I go. I’m recommitting. I’m ready.